where have I been/what have I been doing?

to keep it simple, I haven’t gone anywhere, and tumblr is the only thing I haven’t been doing.

I’m keeping balance with school, plus another online course that I am taking. on top of that, I’ve got to spend my time with the girlfriend when I can, which unfortunately, isn’t enough. there’s been plenty of modern warfare 2, and job hunting. I changed my handwriting, and have been extending a five page paper for AP Lit into a 100 page paper. filling out applications for jobs and voice competitions has taken a good slice of my time as well. I spent a lot of time with friends, doing things like playing mario party and laser tagging.

I’ve kept myself busy, it just hasn’t been anywhere near tumblr. I’m running my life at the fastest pace I can possibly run it. I’m dying for graduation to be here, I’m ready to be done with public schooling, and I’m ready to move on to the next chapter of my life. the days are flying by, and I’m constantly hoping to myself that it will stay that way. I’ve been driving a lot, up and down streets, and around blocks and in large circles. gives me time to think and catch up with myself.

I’ve been sick with a sore throat since saturday morning, and today I’ve developed a cough to go with it. I stayed home from school because, on top of both of those, I had an awful headache this morning in my first period class.

I’m coughing at the moment, but that’s because I have a small fragment of a popcorn kernel caught somewhere in the back of my throat, and every so often when I feel it, I just cough, in an attempt to get it out.

I’ve been watching a lot of tv, but nothing on NBC. I won’t watch NBC anymore, and I never want to see Jay Leno’s face again. mainly, I’ve been watching the soup, american idol, and baseball spring training.

my brother’s birthday was on monday, and my gift for him still has no arrived. it’s been in the mail for a few days now. I’m hoping he likes it as much as he has liked everything else so far.

I don’t have much else to say, so I think I am just going to go to sleep now.

switchback.

I had been using google chrome for a long time to do my browsing. I liked the interface better, and the general feel of it better than safari and firefox. honestly, I would say that I still do. but now I’m back on safari for a few more important reasons. mainly, I can watch youtube videos without having to wait a month for them to process, and I can just about anything on the internet a wee bit faster.

I can’t wait until my graduation when I finally get my new Mac Pro…it’s going to be sex everyday.

job apps.

I applied for a shit ton of jobs today. I want a job.

chelsea.

I said it earlier on my facebook, but I’ll say it again now. some days in life, I just feel so down, and really ashamed to be a part of this human race. there are some days when I just feel disgusted that there are people out there in the world who do terrible things and hurt innocent people. these feelings have been a constant in my head the past few days with the disappearance of chelsea king, and the growing belief that she had been abducted and raped. with the affirmation coming in the form of her found remains, I thought for a moment that the disappointment in my head for mankind would never stop.

but then I looked at it through a wider lens. while it was a human who committed these acts against an innocent young girls, everyday people also played a major part in helping to find her. over the five day period, I’m sure upwards of 1500 people helped in the effort to find chelsea. most of them people who had never met her or known of her before the incident. tonight, in her honor, a candlelight vigil was held at a nearby church. 5000 people attended to pay tribute to chelsea and share grief while celebrating her life.

and when it comes down to it, the way you feel about people really depends on how you look at situations like this. right now I can safely say that I’m proud to be a san diegan, and I’m proud to be among such wonderful people who would happily join in the effort to search for a missing person. I’m sure chelsea would be delighted to know the immense outpouring of love and care in her name that swelled not only san diego, but other parts of our nation as well.

my condolences go out to friends and family. I only hope that the rough seas beneath you will calm with time.

agenda for tonight:

• watch letterman instead of leno.